Life is hard. That’s a lesson I’ve learned as I’ve gotten older. I’ve run into several spots along the way in my life where I just feel like throwing in the towel and calling it quits. For a long time, I felt like the only person that constantly felt like the world kept throwing challenges at them and I was getting so tired of it and kept asking “why me?”
Why did I have to have such severe anxiety that I can’t function like a “normal” person?
Why did I keep getting criticism about my artwork?
Why have some of my friends just walked out of my life?
Why, why, why, why and why?
It was after asking myself enough times, that I realized that it was a part of life. Nothing ever goes as planned. Friends leave, the world can be cruel, and sometimes things just aren’t fair. But that’s life.
I realized that I had to stop constantly asking “why me?” and take control of my negative thoughts. I began to realize (after a LOT of self-help sessions and through the help of my counselor) that bad things are always going to happen to you. Things are going to keep happening in your life that you have absolutely no control over, and they will tear you down and bring you to your knees, and you can’t control what happens. So you have to focus on the one thing you can control, which is how you react to those tough times.
Instead of continuing to feel like I just wanted to constantly give up, I tried really hard to redirect my thoughts and all that sad and negative energy I had into thinking about things in a different light. A light that wasn’t so dark and gloomy.
I went back to those thoughts I was experiencing and sorted them out and fought back instead of just letting them win. Instead of saying “why me?”, I changed the way I spoke to myself about those hard times. I changed them from “why did this have to happen?” to “This happened, and I can’t control that, but I can control how I react to it. As much as it makes me sad, I understand that it happened for this reason and I can accept that. ” So on, and so forth.
I took the time to realize that I’m the only one who can help myself, and I’m the only one who can decide to just give up. I can either choose to keep taking baby steps when things get hard, and get through it with each passing day, no matter how long it takes. Or, I could simply give up and let it win.
A few years ago, I would have just let the negativity win, but not now.
Now, I know to stand up to my thoughts.
Now, I know that I am worthy of all the wonderful things this world has to offer.
Now, I know that I am strong, independent, and a wonderful person.
If you’re reading this and you’re thinking “wow this really sounds like me”, then please know that you aren’t alone. And also know that as heavy and dark as your negative thoughts may feel, they’re just thoughts. They are thoughts that can be changed with a simple change of your outlook on life and switching to a more positive mindset.
No matter how hard life gets and no matter what curve balls are thrown at you that you didn’t see coming, just make sure that you never give up. You can beat whatever battle you are facing.